First and foremost I'm not a love guru or whatsoever and I'm not an expert when it comes to this matter so if you'll ask me what the heck is your reason why you're writing this then my answer is just simple as NOTHING. No kidding, I didn't have any experience on how it feels like to be in a relationship so who am I to advice right? But there is part in me that just want to express my outlook and nags about love. Being so "mahugot" when it comes to love issues (yes, opo lagi akong may hugot. Take note malalim ang pinanghuhugutan) help me a bit easier to write this entry. I believed that we are all dope in love with our own ways. Whatever your status is whether your forever single, single but ready to mingle, kasi-single lang (sorry for this for I know how it feels *heartbreak*), single but happy, It's complicated, In a relationship and etc we all experienced this roller coaster of emotions that love brings to our lives. Stupid, fool, deny it or not, we became or become like that just for love, sometimes we're not aware that we are already on that stage. Just like what I've said we are love fools in our different ways and I'm NOT a love GURU  to help you to get rid of that but I will still do my best. 

• "I'm not good enough for him/her. He/she always make an effort to make this relationship works." Always making yourself a nonsense in your relationship is not a good thing. Maybe he/she exert much effort but remember you also make an effort for that to work you may not be aware of that simple things that you do but believe me it's already an EFFORT dude.

• Still loving that someone knowing for a fact that he/she doesn't love you anymore. I don't know if that kind of person is just being a masochist or what I mean why do you keep on holding with that relationship if it's already gone? Face the fact that he/she doesn't feel the same way than before. Why do you keep on making yourself suffer and bearing with the pain all by yourself? Why do you keep on spending your time, effort and precious emotion to that stupid, nonsense crap?  

Just let it go, let him/her go and tell to yourself or much better tell this to that jerk "It's your loss, not MINE."  

• Fight for nothing. If you already feel that he/she doesn't want it anymore or they just give up then it's better to stop. I'm not saying that you'll just eventually stop or he/she is not worth fighting for but ilagay mo sa lugar, laban ka nga ng laban pero wala ka na palang pinaglalaban. You need to know first if your partner still wants you to fight for your relationship cause if not then better stop the fight dude. Let me quote this particular line from one of the scenes in Kalyeserye, "Paano ako lalaban kung susuko ka?" Alden Richards to Yaya Dub. 

• Waiting for NOTHING. Special shoutout to my crush, kidding haha. It's just a little bit similar to that Fight for nothing but the big difference is that the logic is: 

Siya alam nya pang kahit papaano may pinaglalaban sya, ikaw gusto mong lumaban kaso una pa lang alam mo ng wala ka ng pinaglalaban kasi wala namang KAYO, simple logic right? Reality hurts. 
Let me dedicate this third situation to all the members of the one-sided love community I'm willing to be your founder if you want hahaha. Well don't try to fool yourself that maybe there is a chance between you and him/her and just keep waiting for that CHANCE. We all know that it's really hard to wait especially when you didn't even sure if he/she will come or not. There is nothing wrong with waiting but with limitation, put an end or a period coz we all deserved to be happy and not just waste your time waiting for nothing. If you're happy on just waiting for that someone without any assurance if he/she will feel the same way as you do then go ahead but you deserve someone better. Choose to be happy than to wait for nothing. (Lakas ng loob kong sabihin yan di ko naman maapply sakin. Well, that's life). 

• "Magmo-move on na ako. Wait, di ko pala kaya." It's not true that you CAN'T do it because the truth is you DON'T want to do it cause you still love him, simple as that. Do not ever ever tell to yourself that you can't move on because reality wise, YES YOU CAN. The problem with you is that you keep on telling yourself that you'll move on to forget the pain but your mindset is that you just can't do it. If you already tired on crying for a wrong girl/man then don't let your heart affects your mind. Intyendes? Yes, GOOD.

To my Dearest Self,

How are you?  Did you stop overthinking some things these past few days? or do you even get that peace of mind that you wished? I have a lot of questions that I want to ask but I think there is only one answer to that and I guess it's no, NOT YET. If you can just make all these things possible then how good it would be but it's NOT that easy, I know you want to tell that to me right? Yes, if you can just say yes and tell that it's fine I guess there will be no problem but we both know that it is impossible. There were questions in life where we just wished to answer it in a more positive way but I know that in your case you can't still say that answer. All this time you've already had enough and there were numerous times and instances that you just wanted to give up, get tired and just want to finish the fight. Right from the start you already knew that you lose and you eventually let your problems defeat you and manipulate your life.

We both know that you keep on trying your very best to survive but it seems that it is not enough. I know you're thankful for experiencing a little bit of ease and comfy lifestyle compare to others who needs to work hard to make a living but why do you keep on believing that your life is just full of misery and pain? Day by day, I knew you were suffering for you don't know what is wrong, why do all things end up not according to your plans and there were some nights where you'll just cry and think your life is just a mess and a piece of crap.

Whatever problems you encounter or hinders you from surviving always remember that I will be there willing to be your forever partner. I'm hoping that you'll attain all your goals and your one ultimate dream. I can't wait for that day when you'll finally get the peace of mind that you always wanted, and will eventually blossom from a girl who was living in darkness and sadness into a more mature one that knows what she wants. I wish you nothing but the best.
SMILE and CHEER UP, self.

I'm BACK. Oh yes, I'm back... Obviously since I'm a beginner in the world of blogging this TSC (The Sunday Currently)was kinda new to me until I saw this particular post from Yaya Dub's blog and found out that it was a link made up by Siddathornton. (Oh another co-blogger user)  Honestly, I find it so interesting so I decided to join in the bandwagon, this is it my Sunday Currently 01. Hope you like it.

all these tragic and sorrowful news that is happening to different countries. 

It's been a while since the last time I post something on my blog so hooray for this new blog entry, Cess. I really want to update or post something but I just can't think of what to write and honestly since the past few days (even now) I have this dilemma whether to change my platform/site or remain as a blogger user. Even up to this moment that I'm writing this post I'm still thinking the same issue.

Seriously speaking, ever since I started this blogging thingy I became so fussy about my blog especially when it comes to its style and its outcome/appearance. I want something unique or even just to satisfy my taste in choosing a particular theme and that is actually my problem with this site, I mean I'm not really satisfied on their themes that they offered to the point that I'm getting sick with it (Sorry though) but I really forced myself to just be contented on what they have offered after all I'm a free user so who am I to complain right? I don't know but all of a sudden I just want to give my blog a new style or something appealing to the eyes of my readers (as if I have other readers aside from myself hahaha) but yeah back to what I'm talking about I came to the point that I almost decided to change to another platform that can offer a much better themes and style to your blog site but gladly my bestfriend who is also a blogger user shared some things on how can I improve my chosen theme. Considering the fact that I'm the first one to used this site than her but still she came up with that kind of way (BRAVO PRINCESS, YOU DESERVED A CLAP FOR BEING JUST SO STUPID)
but anyways, I'm very thankful to my bestfriend for enlightening me about this customization thingy, YOU'RE SUCH A BLOG SAVER ALLI.

                         -What If (2013)