Turn back time

Reminder: It's a major throwback so please bear with me and this is nothing to do with a song (same title lang).

It's just less than a week before my Birthday and ~~I'm turning 19~~, can't believe it dude. I'm feeling old ugh! I can be 18 forever or much better I would definitely return to my toddler days and make the best out of it. But anyway I need to face the reality- ~~I'm not a little girl anymore~~. Moving on I decided to write this entry it is because I'm bored, ~~kidding~~, my reason is that I really want to share with you guys my 18th Birthday celebration which happens to be a major throwback to talk about. 1 year na nakalipas oh! Pero yun nga please bear with me cause it was a very special day for me.

Sneak peek

Flashback

Honestly, I didn't really had the interest of having a party and a month before my Birthday I already told my parents that I didn't want to have a debut. I'm not a party person and sometimes I found it tremendously boring. So yun nga settled na wala na, actually my plan was to informed my parents na ipera na lang so that I could actually used it in going to concerts or even an out of town trip. So nung January I already said to my friends that I decided not to have a party but until one day right after I got home from school my mother dropped a startling announcement "Magd-debut ka ha" simple as that and I was just like:

Yeah medyo matagal pa ang pag-processed sakin nun and I thought that they were just joking but no they were freaking serious they were even in the midst of looking for a venue. I was still not convinced that they were sure about their decision because it was just two weeks before my Birthday and it was not possible to fixed all the things and preparations in just a couple of weeks. I already refused that offer but my mother insist. Siya talaga ang may gusto and I had no choice but to agree with it. Even my friends were also surprised when I told them about the news, napaka biglaan naman kasi talaga.

I feel so stressed and dramatic throughout the preparation because my parents kept on scolding me and every time that I went home from school I always kept on receiving nags coming from them because according to them "I'm not doing anything" when it comes to the invites, list of names for the program and etc. I did my best to contact some of my high school friends but sadly most of them won't be able to come then I came to the point that I asked myself "may mga kaibigan ba talaga ako?" diba ang drama pang MMK ang level but I'm stress and really pissed to the extent na gusto ko ng matapos yun well obviously di ko naman talaga gusto na mag-debut. Then there was also a problem with the venue, my parents already booked a reservation to the main function hall/events place but the organizer said that there were some sort of problem cause it turned out na may nauna na pa lang naka reserved dun dapat hahanap na lang ng ibang venue pero wala ng oras cause we had a lot of things to prepared such as gowns, souvenirs, emcee, and the guests. Then they decided that we would just occupy the second floor which was smaller than their main hall. Sayang mas gusto ko talaga dun eh. When it comes to the theme, I chose not to overthink about it and just stick on the usual theme which is a color motif and obviously it was a combination of blue (my favorite color) and white.

Forward to January 15, I celebrated my Birthday one day advance, originally and nakalagay sa birth certificate- 16. It was held at Chef Patrick's Kitchen in University Hills Subdivision (and sobrang lapit lang nya sa UE. Tatawid lang haha) Right from the start I knew that it would be an epic fail because what could you expect from just two weeks of preparation? Sobra sobrang rush na kaya I expected that there would be a lot of problems. I remember all throughout the program madalas wala ako sa upuan ko kasi nandun ako sa mga kaibigan ko kasi I was really worried kung nag-eenjoy ba sila, Imagine 2 tables lang ang halos ako mismo ang nag-invite the rest were relatives and family friends. But they were kept on saying that they enjoyed the party (but until now ayoko pa rin maniwala haha).

Escorts for the night. Dapat talaga yung cousin ko lang (the one with a black tie) then bigla na lang kasama ni daddy yung isa.

And me was like:

Agnes, you cutie little fluffy

Friends

Most favorite photo (though napaka pabebe ko dyan)

However there may be a lot of failures I still enjoyed it because I know that it was my day. I let myself captured all the memories and happenings on that night. Most of my guests told me that they were not used to saw me like that (what I mean is yung nakaayos, make-up and gown) in short it was a total transformation and thanks for that Kuya Matt! But still I'm not pleased about those compliments because I still considered myself as my usual duckling self. It's not that I didn't like the style and make-ups in fact I really liked it but it was just a usual thing for a pessimist like me- to be negative.

PROGRAM:

You know what was the weirdest part yet funny moment during my debut? Then I'll tell you. We were just about to finish some retouched and I'm already wearing my gown we're just waiting for the cue if it was my time to enter the hall. Nakaupo lang ako dun when an old music started to play. Nagsstart na pala yung party sa baba and I couldn't help but to laugh I started to imagined what it looks like kung yung new songs na ipe-play sa party ko magmimixed dun sa classic songs (Weird but funny) but I love old songs though. Una akong inayusan so kailangan ko pang hintayin na maayusan yung nanay ko bago ako umakyat. I'm really bored for cow's sake I'm already in the venue since afternoon (hindi ako excited sadyang kailangan lang talaga). But then I just kept on listening to that old songs coming from that surprise Birthday party dapat talaga dun ako sa area na yun but no hard feelings mas nauna naman talaga silang nagpa-reserved dun but sadly I wasn't able to saw her (the celebrant) that night cause I'm really busy texting my friends asking them if they were ok, kung kanina pa ba sila dun, kung bored na ba sila. I'm really worried to the extent that I would definitely go upstairs and make my entrance without any cue. Sobra kasi akong nag-aalala kung nabo-bored na sila because some of them were already in the venue by 6PM. Actually yun talaga ang sinabi ko sa kanila. So to lessen my tension I kept on asking my sisters, auntie and my mother to assist and make sure to entertain my friends. "Basta chikahin nyo lang" that's what I told them. Then around 7:30 they told us to get ready and we need to go upstairs. Before I went inside may doxology muna, then opening remarks. While waiting for it, nasa labas na rin yung dalawa kong escorts, ang alam ko isa lang but then my father immediately told me na kasama na yung isa. (nastress ako ng very light haha) I was just controlling myself not to laugh when that guy (boss) called my father "Sir" wala lang natawa lang ako dun (weird). Then I already hear the cue from my emcee welcoming me as I take my not-so-grand-entrance. Bago ako pumasok hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko (well obviouly maglalakad lang naman) I had a lot of questions on my mind like paano ba dapat yung lakad mabilis ba dapat or mabagal lang? some weird stuffs and halata naman nung dalawang kasama ko na I'm really nervous. Then the door opens and warla lahat sila nakatingin sakin I tried to calm down and trying not to freak out but I just couldn't help but to look at their expressions baka mamaya pinagtatawan na pala nila yung itsura ko but gladly lahat naman sila nakangiti (lahat nga ba? Oh I don't care anymore).

Oh diba muntik ng lumabo?

My father was already waiting in front holding a bouquet of flowers. After a few messages start na for the program proper and una talaga yung 18 roses ok I'm not ready for it because I don't even know some of them and it would be so awkward.

Unlike the typical red roses, mas preferable ko na mag white roses.

And I was right awkward nga talaga kasi ni hindi man lang kami nag-uusap nung iba and I don't even bother to initiate a conversation with them (hindi ko naman sila kilala eh). It was supposed to be 18 roses but naging 19 na sya, basta mahabang storya. After that 18 roses, my emcee prepared a song number, I actually don't know about it, but then sobrang galing nya. My sister's friend/suitor (lol) played a piano. (In all fairness nakaka impressed naman) then my sister (~~again~~) prepared some questions related about me and asked some of the visitors to answer the questions. And obviously, yung dalawang bestfriends ko ang nakasagot halos lahat haha though may ilang questions naman na nasagot din ng ibang college friends ko. Right after the Q and A portion, dinner naman. While we're having our dinner a video presentation was showed in the screen. Presenting some photos way back when I was a child up to present, nakakahiya haha.

Next was the 18 treasures.

This photo means a lot to me. My grandmother couldn't hide her tears and as usual me as a self-proclaimed lola's girl I also burst into tears. Hindi pa man sya nakakapag bigay ng message umiiyak na agad sya.

After I blow my candles,it was my time to say my speech... spell kinakabahan- PRINCESS hahaha. I knew that it would be so epic fail but never in my whole life I imagined that I would breakdown in such kind of event. I was like a crying baby while I'm saying my speech. And until now my sisters used that para asarin ako. Hello can we just move on about that embarrassment and looked for some good things in life? I swear that will never happened again.

After that I immediately went to a dressing room (wow lakas maka showbiz haha) to changed outfit and for some retouched. And another epic moment was that I went upstairs at yung ibang bisita ko nag-aalisan na and yeah I was just like: hindi pa po tapos, saan kayo pupunta? Well at least some of my friends/bestfriends and even "boss" stayed until dawn just to enjoy the night with me. 💙 Love lots guys 😘

All in all I really had fun and I must say it was a once in a lifetime experience. So I thank God and my parents for giving me such a memorable and special party.